Is this your life long goal... is this the one thing that is going to make you happy. There are more important things in life than this. Graduate from school, go to Uni, get married, have children and your gonna act like as if someone stole your dummy. So what if its way off, if you have never made a mistake in life then spit the dummy. If you are fortunate to one day have grandchildren, what are you gonna tell them, that you turned a small problem, the size of a sparrows fart, into an earth quake.