Dude, Asian parents are like that. They came to this country with nothing and they've seen how tough it can be working 9-5 factory jobs. So they just want the best for you. They see education as a ticket to a better lifestyle, but as you get older you'll realise that that's not the case - it's a means to a job you enjoy. If your course won't get you where you really want to go, then you have to figure what will. At the end of the day it's your life, just work up a little more courage to tell her what YOU want to do. Don't be afraid to try while you're still young, you'll end up wasting more time hanging around wondering what could have been than if you just tried and failed in the first place. If you succeed, even better =) Cheer up dude, life's not so clear cut but things always work out in the end. Always. :D p.s this talk of suicide is not a good thing man. talk to someone you trust face to face. keep us posted.